DIARY ENTRY artist statement

Hi mumI I’d write you a letter. I’ve just finished painting, and I’m sitting quietly in my studio, reflecting on what I’ve been up to over the last 23 years since you passed away. Gosh, it’s gone way too quickly!After your passing, I was introduced to painting by a friend. She thought it might help me manage my grief, as I wasn’t coping very well. She was right, I hadn’t realised how much peace and joy it would bring. I set up my easel in the kitchen and spent many hours painting, learning how to mix and apply paints. I had two more babies after you died, and once all three started school, I went to the Sarah McDonald Art School to help refine my skills in oils. Ed and I eventually built a home studio, and I took the leap, giving up graphic design to paint full-time.Over the years, I’ve participated in many group exhibitions, and you’d be happy to know I’ve been a finalist in a few art competitions. Often, while writing artist statements for these shows and prizes, I find myself asking, Why do I paint? It always comes back to you. Losing you taught me not to be afraid of using this passion to express my emotions. I think that’s naturally drawn me to create still life paintings that are peaceful, balanced, and uncomplicated. I want to evoke for the viewer the same sense of calm I feel while I paint.Over the last 18 months, I’ve dedicated all my time in the studio painting my first solo exhibition, something I’ve been so scared of. The fear of wondering, Is it good enough? The fear of the emotions it might stir up and how I’ll respond! So, I decided to write a diary to find some clarity in my thoughts. While writing, you frequently came into my mind. I was never sad, I was reflective on the peacefulness my grief has taught me. And I want this exhibition to represent that.These paintings have no noise, they are silent. The force of air is quietly ascending. It’s the same sensation I felt when you left. The ascending organic matter is life. They depict the elevation of grief, but at the same time, the elevation of coming alive. Maybe that’s me, the grief is over, and I’m at peace. I want this body of work to make people feel warmth in knowing that positives can come from pain and sadness.Mum, with all my heart, I believe  I wouldn’t be the artist or person I am today if it weren’t for losing you. That is why I always knew I’d dedicate my first solo to you. I hope this exhibition brings a smile to your face.LOVE YOU XXX MINNIE